I hope you all had a great Holiday weekend.
I'm sorry for being MIA these past few days, I swear I have good reasons! With school and fashion week approaching, my schedule is total chaos! & to top it all off, my husband has a dislocated shoulder which requires me to do everything for him!
I'm going to open up (a little more than usual) in today's post. If you follow me on periscope then you might've remembered my first Periscope, which was about fear of public speaking and I also shared tips on how to be a better communicator. These past few days I've been really focusing on facing my personal fears and turning them into learning experiences. If you follow my snapchat (JohnnybellSan) then you know what I'm talking about. I was recently on Good Morning America, and been doing a few auditions (on the low). Truly stepping out of my comfort zone and making things happen in order to be a role model to other girls out there including my daughters.
I'm going to share my life story before/during and after blogging and how certain situations changed me forever. Lets get started...
I've had NYTM for almost four years now ( I started in December 2011). I've always edited my own photos, took half of the photos (the other half my husband takes) and wrote my own content. I've never had any guest writers or anything like that. I've had the privilege of working with incredible brands like HTC, Vogue, Lexus, H&M and many more. I've also had the honor of being nominated NYC's top blogger in 2014 as well as flying to Brazil to work with the best Brazilian Footwear Company for a Mother's Day campaign. Everything NYTM is today, has been created by my team (my daughters, husband and myself) and I'm extremely proud of this.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that.. it's about that time to expand our team (which is my biggest fear!). My self-made business is growing rapidly and more individuals who are creative and energetic to join my team. See.. part of resolving anything in life is admitting the problem (which is another fear of mine). I never did before and I never wanted to face reality, so.. I over worked myself to tears. I didn't want to involve anyone in my personal creations because I've always thought no one understands how I want things done.
This may sound very childish to some but not to me. Let me explain.. fyi, this is where it gets personal.
I matured at a very young age and didn't think like average 10 year olds. When I was younger, the side of my bedroom (I shared a room with my brother) was the tidiest side in the entire house. I was (and still am) very sentimental person and words stick to me forever. One quote that is engraved in my mind is; "If you want something done right, do it yourself". My life is based on this quote-
Some of you may not know that I married when I was 16 years old and started my family a short time after. I never had help from absolutely no one after giving birth. I learned how to take care of a child on my own and it was the hardest and more rewarding things in my entire life. I learned to cook with the help of the Food Network and a few international calls to my aunts/uncles who shared recipes through the telephone. & I will always be appreciative for this.
During this time my husband worked from 9-5. I was always in our house focusing on raising the best behaved, well mannered and bright kids. Breakfast, lunch and dinner needed to be on the table every single day despite my own upbringing. I grew up very different than the way I was raising my children. I rarely remember family meals while growing up due to my parents jobs. My mother was a flight attendant and barely spent time home. Now as an adult- I yearn love, unity, honesty, respect and tradition. Which is what I teach my kids every day.
I think the lack of family bonding made me who I am today. Those tough moments where I looked for help and no one was there- forced me to count only on myself if I wanted anything to get done. I've always relied on myself and never felt the urgent need of help until now. This is all due to my husband's recent injury.
Which brings me to my next point. NYTM in searching for two interns. A photographer who is willing to travel for work and a personal assistant.
Both roles require someone who works well with kids, has to be creative, energetic, MUST have a great sense of humor and has to be able to work flexible hours. If you're interest please send your resume to Johnnybell@nytrendymoms.com